I would be dead without hope; “If your Law had not been my delight then I would have perished in my affliction.” This is why Christmas matters. It is all of Christ and all of hope made tangible. I realized early on that I was capable of good things; I have lofty goals and a romantic disposition. Beauty causes my heart to soar. A brisk wind stirs my soul and music makes me sing. I want the best for humanity but I am not deceived. I do not expect world peace.
I am capable of great evil. Christ constrains me. Without hope hedonism becomes my god. I will feast on food and flesh and never be sated. Never. Knowing this about myself at times leads me to despair. And the world we live in; let’s not even begin. So much dark. Which is why Christ living here as a man makes Christmas of bedrock importance to me.
I feel awkward and out of place. I don’t fit in. This is my normal experience. God gave me my wife, daughter and some close friends to make it through. Christ knew loneliness. You’re God living in flesh; pitching a tent among humans. You know what not fitting in feels like.
Christ put up with all the junk that I do. The selfishness of men and the unruliness of individuals; poverty, hunger and sickness experienced all firsthand. I live with my brokenness. Christ sees into the heart of man. Wicked governments? He was crucified by them. Sin his stripes. Whores his best friends---you think they didn’t share their torment, shame and anger with Him? I am reminded of the song by Rich Mullins, ‘the whole world rests on the shoulders of a homeless man; He had the shoulders of a homeless man.’
Christmas is being known. It is that beautiful mystery; ‘For we do not have a high priest who cannot sympathize with our weaknesses, but One who has been tempted in all things as we are; yet without sin.” For He is the image of the invisible God…by Him all things were created…all things have been created by Him and for Him…He is the beginning and the end. Christmas is all about hope. Being fully known I’ve been bought by the blood of Jesus. He is with me in my struggles here where I don’t fit in. He has reserved me a place imperishable and undefiled. Finally home fully known. Entering into rest and realizing hope.